come clean.

My mom read my blog.

Finally a breakthrough.

I will tell my mom everything.

...She just needs to be ready.

I have a lot to say.

all time low.

So it comes to the point where you have nothing to lose.

It's that little crack around the door, where the light makes the door look vulnerable.

hope in the form of disregard.

what a good idea.

who knew.

Dont you love it when people try to use you for sex.

Im done with that.

So those people can live their shitty lives, becoming whores for the rest of the world somewhere.

I'm not going to mention any names. But certain girls have become super trashy. It's hard to even talk to them anymore.

I can't trust girls. it's too hard

pride, or something of the sort.

So I realized it. All I have to do is sit and be happy. Good life. Super life. I quit my job tonight. I hated the corruption. I hated the trashy-ness too. Fuddruckers is a sketchy place to work.

So i took off work the past 2 days. I took off school the past 2 days also. It's about time I take a vacation from the world. I spent the 2 days with my best friend. Cody Payne. We went to Towson to meet up with the St. Pauls girls. It was fun, nice vacation away from home.

I have a good amount of friend-ness now. I love it. I've got my fair share of a good crush too. I want it to hit me hard though. I want, I want, I want.

Next weekend I go to North Carolina. I'm becoming happier with traveling. My family does it constantly. It used to piss me off. I just need to rely more on my family...

It's kind of hard though, when you resent them so much. I should be proud of what I have though, because it is all that i have.


I want to watch something good. I want to read something good. Everything is all used up.

The Dangerous Summer is getting there. Who's ready?

I know I am.

Note To Self: Become more interesting.

tired.

I've had a super good weekend.
I have friends. *smiley face*

I think it's funny the way people act. I dont think it's funny how much i work.
Fuddruckers sucks. I feel like Anne Frank. Stupid Neo-Nazi's.

I sort of feel like I have friends. Some of them are fairweather friends. That's a legit form?

I am giving up looking for a girlfriend figure. I think they're the type of thing that just pop up. Searching is worse. It's like hunting. I could hit deer with my car so much more then i could find one with a rifle.

My dad's been trying to get me to go hunting with him. I dont see the point. It will just make me throw up when we cut him open. I dont even like deer.

...unless they're alive.

like bambi.

...but thumper was way better than bambi. aw. rabbits.

I at least need a cuddle buddy.

my family is so boring. My mom sits on the computer, my brother sits on the computer. I just listen to music....on the computer. It's only when i'm not allowed to go outside. Though i've been progressively going outside more often.

I like riding my bike. I always have.

I decided I'm gonna start sneaking out a lot more often. I like the way it feels. I miss doing it every night. The world is so much cooler with the lights off.

Off to work now. I need friends that will actually hang out with me....


good day neighbors.

ps. I'm not desperate. Just over-confident, and fun loving.

tehe. boyish charm.

rasberries.

4 day weekend coming up.
hella.
i'm awesome.
check me out.